Okay??

"Are You Okay?" A question that she had been asked millions of time in the past couple of months.

But today, as this question popped up in front of her, she just wanted to burst into a puddle of tears and wished that he would hold her tight in his grip as she vents it all out, how nothing in her life seems to be in place, how she wishes that, just for once,everything would work out as in her picture perfect novels but all she could do was look into his eyes and smile.

She did not say anything but deep down in her heart, she hoped that he would understand the silence that was deafening him. He was used to her blabbering and would get frustrated when she would play this stupid game of silence. She didn't want that obviously and she was trying with all her will..but you know how sometimes you just can't hold it all in.

Sure, there are times when we all want to be left alone and get lost in our own little world which is just perfect and so did she. She had fallen for a guy, unknowingly and the thing that she found the weirdest of all was, he was nothing like the characters she had loved all along. So yes, she was not okay..not because she was in love but because he did not know and she had no intention of telling him.

So, she went to her room, took out her Kindle, without which her fuzzy li'l brain would have exploded by now for sure and started reading The Fault in Our Stars. It was novels like these that made her question her feelings and that felt nice, thinking that maybe what she is feeling is not love after all and would just disappear after a while. This thought process of hers, though not true would help her calm down and she would go back to being the same old girl with an attitude that was both childish and mature at the same time, which he loved, obviously. 

Totally engrossed in the book, she was startled by her mom's voice calling her for dinner. She was just about to power off the Kindle and answer her mom's call when she read a line that put everything into perspective..It read, "Apparently, the world is not a wish granting factory."

She didn't know how and why but it was this simple quote that made her realize that she had to let it all go..no matter how much she didn't want to. She just had to loosen her grip a bit and it would all be fine,just like old times. Before turning off the lights, she gave their pic, sitting on the top of her desk, a cute li'l smile and said "I'm okay", only this time she knew that it was not a facade anymore.